Hey guys! Been a super long time and don't worry, it's not because I forgot about this. It's because I haven't had much to write about.
Well, got a new job a couple months after quitting Dollarama. Now I am a hostess at this cute little restaurant Las Palapas. Great place! Highly recommend that you go there at least once in your life. Amazing mexican food! I am also doing well in my long term relationship. Very happy and soon enough it'll be our two year anniversary. Incredible I do say!
Also, am planning on getting a sick project car to have. I want to start learning all the good stuff and am more so looking at hatchbacks. Probably more my still and cute. Can't wait to start on that when I get the money. Also, cannot wait to be legal drinking age. Sucks when all your friends are 19 and I'm the lonely one out on the nights everyone goes out.
Saw 'Project X' in the theaters a couple days ago too! Oh my lord, does that ever put you in a party mood. Truly inspirational. I'm definitely buying that as soon as it comes out on DVD. Ridiculous!
So everything has been quite alright lately. Things are good at home and out and about. Focusing on goals in life and making the moola. Slowly still deciding what I want to do in my future, which is still a complicated topic.
Pretty much it. If I think of anything else I may as well write it down. Sorry my life ain't that interesting but may as well document for something to do!
Have a great evening everyone!
Saturday, March 24, 2012
Sunday, November 27, 2011
In order to be
Who are you to judge me and say who I am. You think you know me from on the outside but you don't. There is a lot more to me than a body and a brain. I have sanity and humanity. I have emotions and feelings just like you. I have interests and dislikes. I am no different than you are. Who are you to tell me what will happen. Say how I will feel. What I'll remorse or regret. Say what I'll like or love. Who are you to predict my future. I make me future and I make my decisions. No one is perfect and no one will ever find the perfect person for them that has all the same interests and experiences. That would obviously be boring, you need those differences. Who are you to say what I will get and will not receive. Who are you to say what I should think and say what's wrong and right. Who are you to tell me what I am and stick a giant label on my forehead. For you don't know me. You don't know what I think. You don't know about my past and future. You don't know how I feel. You don't know what I like and dislike. You don't know who or what I am.
Sunday, November 20, 2011
Mo-vember
Well guys, been quite a while. A bit has happened since. So I'll try to clue you guys in without making it a puzzle or the Davinci Code.
Well still working at Dollarama. It's still alright. My shifts are back to 7-3, days go by fast. We are falling behind though and it's getting a little stressful. They got me working in seasonal for a couple days, leaving my aisle alone and there are piles of boxes there now. So, ah! We constantly getting new people or transfers to help out.
Ended up going to Edmonton in October, since I don't think I said in any past posts. It was a really good time. Some ups and downs but overall very good. Hopefully again soon. I like their scene there.
Dad was away for 2 weeks in October and a bit in November. Back now. Got used to taking care of it on my own though. Except for my brother who didn't do anything around the house.
Lost my visa and a lady found it and was going to give it back. And it was a couple days later and I needed it so I just cancelled and ordered a new one and unfortunately she dropped it off just that night. Car was in the shop for a bit, just got it back and now the check engine light it back on. Seriously?
My grandma had a heart attack a little bit ago. She is doing fine now though. Made me cry knowing that I'm starting to lose them. One grandma has cancer and my mom's parents both have had heart attacks. Went to visit her with my mom in the hospital. It went well and saw my aunt from Ontario.
I don't know why but lately I feel like I finally find a jolt of happiness and sense of comfort and feel like I found a little part of myself but it eventually leaves or turns out to be false. I don't know what I want anymore. I'm constantly busy and changing. I can only now think back to those good times that made me smile just for a sense of enjoyment. Every one else is moving on in their lives and I feel like I am in the same spot I have been for a couple years. When will I ever get out of this "I don't know" stage. This clueless feel inside me just makes things feel like what's the point? I know there is a past of depression in my life but I thought it was gone and I at least moved on from that. Everything is moving at a fast pace and I just can't seem to keep up so all I can do it just sit back. I want to delete Facebook but there are close friends and family on there that I just can't because this is the only contact I have with them. May even start looking for a better paying job, but don't know for sure yet.
I realized a little about myself today though. I like bringing people into my life but I get a sense of 'uncomfortableness' when I am brought into their life. I feel like I'm intruding and I know I have been like this since I was little. I always had problems with just walking into people's houses even when they told me to, having dinner with others parents, talking to their family, siblings and friends. I'm more of a listener than a talker with most people. I'm so damn awkward. I have this hard shell around me and I know people tell me I care to much what others think or I am just shy. Yes, I am probably just shy but that's just who I am. Not a quality that I like much about myself, but I prefer to not be that remember-able whether it's a good memory or bad. I prefer to leave no trail that I was ever in someone's house. I know have these weird tendencies and issues and I have no idea where I got them from but that's just who I am.
Happy Sunday everyone. Go play in the snow!
Well still working at Dollarama. It's still alright. My shifts are back to 7-3, days go by fast. We are falling behind though and it's getting a little stressful. They got me working in seasonal for a couple days, leaving my aisle alone and there are piles of boxes there now. So, ah! We constantly getting new people or transfers to help out.
Ended up going to Edmonton in October, since I don't think I said in any past posts. It was a really good time. Some ups and downs but overall very good. Hopefully again soon. I like their scene there.
Dad was away for 2 weeks in October and a bit in November. Back now. Got used to taking care of it on my own though. Except for my brother who didn't do anything around the house.
Lost my visa and a lady found it and was going to give it back. And it was a couple days later and I needed it so I just cancelled and ordered a new one and unfortunately she dropped it off just that night. Car was in the shop for a bit, just got it back and now the check engine light it back on. Seriously?
My grandma had a heart attack a little bit ago. She is doing fine now though. Made me cry knowing that I'm starting to lose them. One grandma has cancer and my mom's parents both have had heart attacks. Went to visit her with my mom in the hospital. It went well and saw my aunt from Ontario.
I don't know why but lately I feel like I finally find a jolt of happiness and sense of comfort and feel like I found a little part of myself but it eventually leaves or turns out to be false. I don't know what I want anymore. I'm constantly busy and changing. I can only now think back to those good times that made me smile just for a sense of enjoyment. Every one else is moving on in their lives and I feel like I am in the same spot I have been for a couple years. When will I ever get out of this "I don't know" stage. This clueless feel inside me just makes things feel like what's the point? I know there is a past of depression in my life but I thought it was gone and I at least moved on from that. Everything is moving at a fast pace and I just can't seem to keep up so all I can do it just sit back. I want to delete Facebook but there are close friends and family on there that I just can't because this is the only contact I have with them. May even start looking for a better paying job, but don't know for sure yet.
I realized a little about myself today though. I like bringing people into my life but I get a sense of 'uncomfortableness' when I am brought into their life. I feel like I'm intruding and I know I have been like this since I was little. I always had problems with just walking into people's houses even when they told me to, having dinner with others parents, talking to their family, siblings and friends. I'm more of a listener than a talker with most people. I'm so damn awkward. I have this hard shell around me and I know people tell me I care to much what others think or I am just shy. Yes, I am probably just shy but that's just who I am. Not a quality that I like much about myself, but I prefer to not be that remember-able whether it's a good memory or bad. I prefer to leave no trail that I was ever in someone's house. I know have these weird tendencies and issues and I have no idea where I got them from but that's just who I am.
Happy Sunday everyone. Go play in the snow!
Friday, September 30, 2011
End of September
This feels great. Honestly, having this job may be adding stress and pain related issues to my life but it's great. I am a lot more tired since I work at 7 in the morning and gotta go to sleep earlier, but now I have something to do and am making money. I'm even in charge of two aisles. I'm getting the hang of it and soon I'll be trained on cash. I just got a new debit card (happy I lost my old one now because I got a scene card) and I found out I have around $640 sitting in there (also because I just added $200 to it from dad for getting a god report card a little 'signing' bonus) and soon to be over a grand since this was my second week working. I don;t know exactly when I'll get paid but I'll look on probably Sunday or Monday since that is when our schedules are taken down. Starting an 8hr shift next week so I get to make close to $100 more each week. It'll be good! Sure longer but I got stuff to do and the week after we start counting and more training.
Anywho! Hopefully I get to sleep over at Jason's tonight. Got a busy weekend. Saturday is the Enduro at 2pm at the tracks, apparently where people go to trash their cars and on Sunday I am going to Melfort to a rodeo with Lauren and meet her boyfriend. Haha once again I don't get to sleep in on my Sunday. Last Sunday I went with Jason and some of his Honda club to a Fallout car meet in Regina. It was FONKING hot, I wore skinnies and a white tank top because I thought it was chilly. NO WAY JOSE! I was melting into a puddle, drank a ridiculous amount of water but yeah it was great. I know he probably thinks I didn't have a good time but I honestly did. May not have known many people, until I talked to some later that night, but some of those cars! Inspiring. Great ideas. Just wish I had a car to work on and a nice one.
Anywhosle. Got stuff to do and people to see. I'll be back on a post something in a bit, nothing much to say that's new and exciting in my life but yeah. I also am planning on going to Edmonton one weekend soon because I want to go before it starts to get too cold out or even snowing. Yikes!
Have a great day! (:
xo
Anywho! Hopefully I get to sleep over at Jason's tonight. Got a busy weekend. Saturday is the Enduro at 2pm at the tracks, apparently where people go to trash their cars and on Sunday I am going to Melfort to a rodeo with Lauren and meet her boyfriend. Haha once again I don't get to sleep in on my Sunday. Last Sunday I went with Jason and some of his Honda club to a Fallout car meet in Regina. It was FONKING hot, I wore skinnies and a white tank top because I thought it was chilly. NO WAY JOSE! I was melting into a puddle, drank a ridiculous amount of water but yeah it was great. I know he probably thinks I didn't have a good time but I honestly did. May not have known many people, until I talked to some later that night, but some of those cars! Inspiring. Great ideas. Just wish I had a car to work on and a nice one.
Anywhosle. Got stuff to do and people to see. I'll be back on a post something in a bit, nothing much to say that's new and exciting in my life but yeah. I also am planning on going to Edmonton one weekend soon because I want to go before it starts to get too cold out or even snowing. Yikes!
Have a great day! (:
xo
Saturday, September 17, 2011
Awww Yeaaah
Good news! Finally got a job today. I was hired on the spot at Dollarama as a daytime stocker. I'd also be doing some cashier work as well. Good pay and good hours. Monday to Friday 10-5 so far. And finally my dad is getting off my back and said no more curfew. Boo yeah!?
Things are finally looking up. Had a great weekend. Went out with Jason to a friends house, ending up drinking a bit and having a great time meeting new people and talking to friends. Even danced and watched a guy rap like the first time I met him. Overall a good night! Sucks that even a little bit of alcohol can do so much damage to me in the morning. I hate hangovers. I need to make SURE I drink a ton of water before I go to bed. I have also decided I'm switching to beer for a while. Going to find the good stuff. Man hard liquor just doesn't do too well with me since the whole 'hospital' thing. Especially mixing shots and beer and the brightest thing to do either. But anywho! It's not over yet.
You all have a great weekend and if you want, leave a comment telling me any alcohol/hang over tricks?
Have fun and be safe! Don't do anything I wouldn't do (or would). XO
Things are finally looking up. Had a great weekend. Went out with Jason to a friends house, ending up drinking a bit and having a great time meeting new people and talking to friends. Even danced and watched a guy rap like the first time I met him. Overall a good night! Sucks that even a little bit of alcohol can do so much damage to me in the morning. I hate hangovers. I need to make SURE I drink a ton of water before I go to bed. I have also decided I'm switching to beer for a while. Going to find the good stuff. Man hard liquor just doesn't do too well with me since the whole 'hospital' thing. Especially mixing shots and beer and the brightest thing to do either. But anywho! It's not over yet.
You all have a great weekend and if you want, leave a comment telling me any alcohol/hang over tricks?
Have fun and be safe! Don't do anything I wouldn't do (or would). XO
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
Wednesday
Hello people! Just another day.
Well my party was good I guess. Got drunk, didn't end up in the hospital so that's good. Mostly drank beer and had some good friends over from school. Jason slept over but then left in the morning and haven't seen him since. Last time I saw him he was walking out my bedroom door. And sucks also a lot of things are going pretty down hill.
I want to do so many things, I want to get a job, I want to make money so I could do plenty more things, but no employer is allowing me to be successful and prove to them I can do it! I want to move out, live my own life without someone dictating it. Can I do that with you? Can I live with you or am I just going to worry more about women and feeling like I am holding you back from what you could be doing? I just want to know what I am doing wrong.
Well anyways, new album out by The Weeknd. Great except I wish he didn't use that much auto tune. He has an amazing singing voice. Even Drake is in one of the tracks called Thursday.
I just received some money for my birthday and hopefully plan on going to Edmonton real soon. Well anywho, I have dreams plans and memories. Let's see where life goes!
Talk to you all soon and feel free to ask questions or comment on any post. (:
xo
Sunday, August 28, 2011
August
May as well make a post during August before it's gone. I apologize for not writing most of the summer. A lot has been going on, not like any of you care. You don't know me.
Birthday coming up very soon. Party this Friday, just sucks that a lot of people may not be able to make it because its a long weekend, as usual on my birthday. And it sucks that Jason is leaving on my birthday (Saturday) to Edmonton to partay. I'll miss him a ton but I'll know he will have fun and that's all that matters.
Today I'm heading over to my mom's for a BBQ/moving in party. Her new university student tenant that's a girl and her boyfriend, Roi, are moving in today and she is having people over. I know this will be good for her and her boyfriend has a great sense of humor. He even came to my graduation which was very nice of him. My dad is also seeing another girl who I like to call Splenda because her name sounds like it and I bet she is splendid. I'm glad both my parents are happy now and not fighting, living their lives and not at each other's throat.
Still applying and sending out resumes, never knew how picky people were. Not even a dishwasher job. :/ But oh well. Glad that all the university students are quitting to go back to school so more job opportunities for me. I am planning on saving most of my money.
Even though I only went one night on cruise weekend and am not downtown today for the last day, it was fun. Amazing cars. I didn't think to see half the cars there. Was funny though when I went to see Jason and he was standing with his club and I was at my car with Sabrina wanting beer, these two guys in a truck pull up and basically ask us to a party and try 'n pick us up! I laughed so hard after. Jason came over though after they left which was cute.
Blink 182 was on Friday and oh my goodness! Amazing. Rancid and Against Me were good too, but people just were sitting/standing around most of the time and getting hammered for Blink. They are really funny though. Got a good sense of humor, amazing songs and great live. I would definitely see them again, if they ever go back on tour.
That is all folks. I'll hopefully be posting more. I wasn't really putting it off, I would have posted sooner but I had nothing to say really. But when I do, I will. Have yourselves a good Sunday!
xx oo
Birthday coming up very soon. Party this Friday, just sucks that a lot of people may not be able to make it because its a long weekend, as usual on my birthday. And it sucks that Jason is leaving on my birthday (Saturday) to Edmonton to partay. I'll miss him a ton but I'll know he will have fun and that's all that matters.
Today I'm heading over to my mom's for a BBQ/moving in party. Her new university student tenant that's a girl and her boyfriend, Roi, are moving in today and she is having people over. I know this will be good for her and her boyfriend has a great sense of humor. He even came to my graduation which was very nice of him. My dad is also seeing another girl who I like to call Splenda because her name sounds like it and I bet she is splendid. I'm glad both my parents are happy now and not fighting, living their lives and not at each other's throat.
Still applying and sending out resumes, never knew how picky people were. Not even a dishwasher job. :/ But oh well. Glad that all the university students are quitting to go back to school so more job opportunities for me. I am planning on saving most of my money.
Even though I only went one night on cruise weekend and am not downtown today for the last day, it was fun. Amazing cars. I didn't think to see half the cars there. Was funny though when I went to see Jason and he was standing with his club and I was at my car with Sabrina wanting beer, these two guys in a truck pull up and basically ask us to a party and try 'n pick us up! I laughed so hard after. Jason came over though after they left which was cute.
Blink 182 was on Friday and oh my goodness! Amazing. Rancid and Against Me were good too, but people just were sitting/standing around most of the time and getting hammered for Blink. They are really funny though. Got a good sense of humor, amazing songs and great live. I would definitely see them again, if they ever go back on tour.
That is all folks. I'll hopefully be posting more. I wasn't really putting it off, I would have posted sooner but I had nothing to say really. But when I do, I will. Have yourselves a good Sunday!
xx oo
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